there were extra cornbread muffins from a seminar this morning

and i wish i could have spread the bounty to all of you, because they were amazing, and because you are amazing, so yes, naturally perfect pairing.

but honestly, thank you for all your kind words. heavens! they were so so lovely to read. i do have trouble with the insane narcissism of this blog, but so happy that it provides such an easy way to connect to so many dear ones who are much too far away.

so thank you all. just so you know, it is just as leslie wrote, that the right decision is the one you are at peace with. and both toni and i are quite at peace with this one. it is only when i stare at the other possibilities (i.e. staying and working here on previously-explained awesome job) that i get very tumultuous and doubtful inside and i question everything and end up feeling awful. when i remember that i am going to berlin, that i will in fact be able to eat ice cream with toni everyday, i feel very warm. so in 3 weeks time, that is exactly what i'll be doing. unemployed, attempting to learn german, eating ice cream, and hugging toni. not half bad if you ask me :)

and to move on to other things that don't involve me,

lincoln and mimi are having a boy!!! the gender ratio in our family is getting all off! but i love the thought of these 3 new little cousins growing up to be best friends. yay for cuddly baby boys :)

ali is awesome and getting involved in the grassroots effort to change sex offender laws in california after the awful chelsea king murder which happened near her home in san diego. read her blog and email Assemblymember.Fletcher@outreach.assembly.ca.gov to get on a mailing list if you'd like to be more involved. (btw, ali also got into YALE. yes, she is that amazing.)

oh, and stella has really really cute feet, in case you forgot :)


much love to you all,
jooj.