i told you i'd write again soon... HA!

yes. saw THIS doc tonight. (a librarian and postal worker in new york city who were insanely passionate about the art world and amassed a 4,000+piece art collection over the years on their meager salary in their tiny apartment that is now worth millions and has been donated to the national gallery.)

hi, amazing! !!!

and then while on the subway home i peeked over the shoulder of the scruffy-hoodlum-looking-young-guy next to me to read his opened book: "beauty is truth, truth beauty--that is all ye know on earth, and all ye need to know." (i tell you this was the last person on earth you would imagine to be reading keats. LOVE it when this happens.)

and so these two things tied together: both represent an unabashed LIVING. life without meta-consciousness and hyper self-awareness. this idea of completely dedicating yourself to life. stop thinking and just living. beautiful and inspiring.

the end. (but more to come!)

note: i am at work

so this will be short. (HA! right. i tend to write very quickly and don't go back and read through - just type and post. genuine stream-of-consciousness indeed.)

so. i just had to take a quick sec between reading office emails and meeting with my boss to say that i am really happy and really love new york city with its absolute insanity and diversity and thriving pulse of life. i feel my blog has lacked quite a lot of late (or did it ever have anything? hm.) but i feel i leave out so much of my actual life and thoughts and experience in the blog because i don't know how to express them. last night i really wanted to write about my incredible early evening jaunt through central park and the motley collection of humanity i saw there existing side by side (a full-on bollywood dance troupe, multiple african drum circles, break dancing groups, violin-performance artists etc etc)... or to describe the sounds i hear from the opened windows of my apartment facing down onto broadway in all its upper manhattan glory...

but i can't seem to describe any of it sufficiently and so i just don't. i resort to routine blogging instead - even if there is actually so much else happening. my eyes are also tired of computer screens. there was a funny joke article in the onion last week "90% of waking hours spent staring at glowing rectangles." HA! so true. you have to glance at the article. the pictures and captions are awesome.

hm. i don't know the point of where this is going, but i'm feeling a lack of a former intellectual fervor and considerate contemplation in my life, and feel i'm becoming horribly dull. i feel i should only report back once conditions improve :)

and thank you to everyone who actually reads this bloody thing - how kind you all are! much love to everyone! i'll write again soon.

mopey-mopey-mopesville.

when toni and i left my apartment this afternoon for the airport, the skies were sunny and clear. when i emerged from the 145th street subway stop here in harlem 3 hours later - alone - there was a massive thunder/rainstorm. symbolic? totes. :( sigh. in case you didn't know, trans-continental/long-distance relationships = AWFUL.

i'm in need of mass amounts of encouragement and loving happy words right about now. and some lovely pictures from the last two weeks won't hurt either... [ones at the top taken at the met, then the two of us on the top of the empire state building and toni at coney island. huzzah!]

today

*photos taken here.

just a few things

1. i saw 2 very stylish men today in grand central station with newsie-style hats and (subtle) pinstripe suits. it was such an awesome change from the drab business wardrobe i see usually. i wish the sartorialist had been nearby! (though he would have been smashed in the mad rushing crowds that is the 7am midtown subway commute)

2. ever since summer struck the courtyard of my apartment building has been buzzing (literally) with air conditioners. when you're in my room there is an incredibly annoying undercurrent droning sound that seems to infiltrate your ears into your brain. it's sort of driving me crazy. (oh, and my shower drain stopped working AGAIN this morning. for the love of new york apartments!)

3. toni gets here tomorrow afternoon! (yes i know i mentioned this already) so today at work i cannot for the life of me concentrate for more than 2 minutes together. good thing i finished a heap-load of my assignments in the last 3 weeks, because honestly productivity today seems impossible :)

4. i had to re-post this picture of stella that steph posted a few days ago because honestly. it is so dang cute and the perfect distraction material for a day like today :)

the next 5 days

i'm really looking forward to this week for 3 reasons
(one a bit more than the others....)

1. the last 8 days of working at unicef i haven't had an official workspace because my contract was still being drawn up. i would go in for meetings, but then had to work in temporary locales. BUT my contract is now done and ready. so monday i can officially work at my own desk!

2. the weather report is 75 degrees and sunny for the whole week. GORGEOUS.



...........AND

3. toni makes his inaugural visit to the US on friday :) i hardly have words to express the excitement :)

what a beautiful week to be in new york, yes?

!!!

lunch today = newly reopened washington square park, a heaping pile of cherries, my camera! and some hannah arendt :)

(the only place in new york where passivity is encouraged)

.......................it was heavenly.

another green wall

i came home tonight just as the sun was setting, casting the most beautiful shadows over the piano in our apartment.

and the apartment was empty, so i indulged in a bit of de-compressing time by playing chopin.

[i only ever play when no one is home :) so i don't get to play too often :(]

but it was one of the most lovely evenings i've had in awhile, where i actually felt a bit of relaxation kick in. due to about a dozen different factors, i've been at the absolutely highest-level of nyc-frenetic mode for the last weeks especially and can't seem to find any calm. i can't even sleep when i want to, and it's really beginning to wear

me

down................


so it's now 9 pm, and i'm going to finish reading a few more reports for work and then be asleep by 10:30pm. this is my goal. if this happens i will be insanely grateful to the melatonin that i plan to take at 10pm sharp :) thanks mom!