and oh no! oh no oh no, in this week of free string quartets at lincoln center, motorino pizzas, ethiopian documentaries, bagelsbagelsbagels, chelsea openings, fort tryons, williamsburg banks, almondine macarons, fairways, levain cookies, wagner colleges, dumbo friends, num pangs, snowy central parks, and all the rest i think oh no oh no i love this city too too much to leave. i know this city too too well, it fits me like a glove.
but wait wait wait. it's quite obvious that i love this city so much this week because of a certain beloved bearded man accompanying me at each step. the weeks when he is not here, of course it's charming and i have great affection for the concrete mountains, but life is only that much rosier when the man you love is strolling with you hand in hand, ja?
and he is the very reason i am leaving, to (hopefully) make berlin as natural to me as new york is, and so i calm down a bit and realize that in 3 days, when i'm alone in the city again, i know i will no longer think oh no oh no i cannot leave. yes i leave a great deal behind and step into a great unknown, but if i can feel the way i have at so many points this week ALL THE TIME, then how on earth could i not say adieu to these beloved 5 boroughs?
so cher new york, i will start now in preparing my 4-week adieu. i'm certain we will meet again in the future, i will renew film forum memberships and shop exclusively at fairway and go to powerhouse book readings and it will be grand once more. but for now, i'm trading you in for a very different model, one in which they speak a very different language, but one which holds something a bit more appealing than bagels (yes, it is possible).
in other words: toni and i are feasting on the city, it is glorious and hard at the same time, he leaves on saturday, i am sad, sad that we have to have another goodbye, but overjoyed that it will only last 4 weeks. and then no more goodbyes. huzzahhuzzahhuzzah!
ok ok. enough with the circuitous introverted ranting. back to unicef-related matters :)
3 comments:
NYC is an amazing place - i have loved it since i was 14 living in Connecticut. but it's not the same when you aren't with the one you love! glad you could have such a good week together - hey its still only thursday! i recognized everything except num pang. mom
be sure to brush up on your spanish because that's a hard language!
i'm so glad toni got to come back to see you again! you must have so much fun in the city together. i'm also so glad i got to come see you while you were there. i wonder if you'll be back, your future is so exciting jooj! :)
Post a Comment