this past memorial day some friends and i pilgrimaged out to robert smithson's "spiral jetty" in the great salt lake. it was one of the most ethereal and transcendent places i've ever been to. next to the jetty were these random outcroppings of dilapidated wood pillars someone had erected - i have no idea who. but i actually found them more interesting than smithson's piece (which was still beautiful and powerful in and of itself). anyway, i took these shots with my holga camera. much love, jooj.
01 June 2007
22 May 2007
bonjour, mac
so it took a full month for the compusa people to realize that no matter what they did, they couldn't fix my computer without replacing the motherboard (i.e. $800). so, rather than do that, i received yet another beautiful gift from my dear father:
a spectacular brand-new black macbook.
this means i am finally back to frequenting the world of blogs! and thanks to natalie and leslie, i have a fantastic new look for my dear little blog. thanks both of you! you're too kind, really.
a spectacular brand-new black macbook.
this means i am finally back to frequenting the world of blogs! and thanks to natalie and leslie, i have a fantastic new look for my dear little blog. thanks both of you! you're too kind, really.
in other news, i have 4 weeks left in provo. (!!!) i told my boss at guru's today that my last day of work will be june 14th. i want to enjoy my last weekend/week in provo with no work. i have so many dear friends that i need to spend time with before i say goodbye to this fantastic chapter of my life. i've been so lucky to have the past 4 years. they've been dreamlike in many ways. and to close this all. . .que c'est bizarre !
08 May 2007
the third wave
this is a fascinating article from the new york times. i absolutely agree with its sentiment. it argues that female characters in popular media today have been stripped of any ability to be empowered, controlled, self-sufficient individuals and are instead portrayed as overly-neurotic, needy, and desperate. i remember discussing something similar with mom when "superman returns" came out. we both agreed that the contrast of the new lois lane by kate bosworth to the classic lois played by margot kidder was shocking. kate bosworth was not only fragile in physical appearance (much too underweight), but also in her characterization of the once-empowered lois lane. then again, we discussed, what young actress could have done better? young actresses seem trained to appear small and needy - while men continue to fulfill the same roles they always have. this is a frightening commentary on the way women are potentially viewed today. i'm all for exposing human complexities and weaknesses in cinema/TV - but how are women being denigrated by this? what movie character of today could compare to karen blixen? who, though shows human weakness and frailty in many ways, never becomes a simplified waif craving men in overtly sexual ways to fulfill her life. we need someone to bring back real women to hollywood.
(oh and p.s. - my computer is still broken, and will not be ready for pick-up until friday. that means over 3 weeks in the shop. more inconvenient than i can say considering one of my jobs requires my presence on a computer. alas.)
(oh and p.s. - my computer is still broken, and will not be ready for pick-up until friday. that means over 3 weeks in the shop. more inconvenient than i can say considering one of my jobs requires my presence on a computer. alas.)
04 May 2007
sorry, steph
so steph astutely noticed that i have not posted in awhile. this is mainly due to 2 factors:
1. i worked 50 hours this week between guru's and womanstats.
2. my computer's been in the repair shop for 9 days now.
more posting soon, i promise.
1. i worked 50 hours this week between guru's and womanstats.
2. my computer's been in the repair shop for 9 days now.
more posting soon, i promise.
22 April 2007
FIN
it's 3 am on saturday night/sunday morning.
i just finished my research paper for dr. kerry's history and literature class.
it was my last assignment to complete at byu.
i am completely done with my undergraduate education.
one of the most bizarre and surreal things i've ever experienced.
no more academic obligation until october 8th.
and that will be at oxford.
OXFORD.
life is insane.
i just finished my research paper for dr. kerry's history and literature class.
it was my last assignment to complete at byu.
i am completely done with my undergraduate education.
one of the most bizarre and surreal things i've ever experienced.
no more academic obligation until october 8th.
and that will be at oxford.
OXFORD.
life is insane.
20 April 2007
in lieu
so i wrote a really, really long post about my feelings of ending BYU. but decided that it was too long and too personal for everyone to hear and thought that really, i can't express myself nearly as well as french poet lamartine. i've mentioned his poem "le lac" before on another blog - because it really is one of my favorites of all time. and i decided to just post this poem instead. it expresses so much of what my other post expressed, in much more beautiful words. . .
Dans la nuit éternelle emportés sans retour,
Ô lac ! l'année à peine a fini sa carrière,
Tu mugissais ainsi sous ces roches profondes,
Un soir, t'en souvient-il ? nous voguions en silence;
Tout à coup des accents inconnus à la terre
« Ô temps ! suspends ton vol, et vous, heures propices !
« Assez de malheureux ici-bas vous implorent,
« Mais je demande en vain quelques moments encore,
« Aimons donc, aimons donc ! de l'heure fugitive,
Temps jaloux, se peut-il que ces moments d'ivresse,
Eh quoi ! n'en pourrons-nous fixer au moins la trace ?
Éternité, néant, passé, sombres abîmes,
Ô lac ! rochers muets ! grottes ! forêt obscure !
Qu'il soit dans ton repos, qu'il soit dans tes orages,
Qu'il soit dans le zéphyr qui frémit et qui passe,
Que le vent qui gémit, le roseau qui soupire,
Ainsi, toujours poussés vers de nouveaux rivages,
Dans la nuit éternelle emportés sans retour,
Ne pourrons-nous jamais sur l'océan des âges
Jeter l'ancre un seul jour?
Ô lac ! l'année à peine a fini sa carrière,
Et près des flots chéris qu'elle devait revoir,
Regarde ! je viens seul m'asseoir sur cette pierre
Où tu la vis s'asseoir !
Tu mugissais ainsi sous ces roches profondes,
Ainsi tu te brisais sur leurs flancs déchirés,
Ainsi le vent jetait l'écume de tes ondes
Sur ses pieds adorés.
Un soir, t'en souvient-il ? nous voguions en silence;
On n'entendait au loin, sur l'onde et sous les cieux,
Que le bruit des rameurs qui frappaient en cadence
Tes flots harmonieux.
Tout à coup des accents inconnus à la terre
Du rivage charmé frappèrent les échos
Le flot fut attentif, et la voix qui m'est chère
Laissa tomber ces mots :
« Ô temps ! suspends ton vol, et vous, heures propices !
Suspendez votre cours :
Laissez-nous savourer les rapides délices
Des plus beaux de nos jours !
« Assez de malheureux ici-bas vous implorent,
Coulez, coulez pour eux;
Prenez avec leurs jours les soins qui les dévorent,
Oubliez les heureux.
« Mais je demande en vain quelques moments encore,
Le temps m'échappe et fuit;
Je dis à cette nuit : Sois plus lente; et l'aurore
Va dissiper la nuit.
« Aimons donc, aimons donc ! de l'heure fugitive,
Hâtons-nous, jouissons !
L'homme n'a point de port, le temps n'a point de rive;
Il coule, et nous passons ! »
Temps jaloux, se peut-il que ces moments d'ivresse,
Où l'amour à longs flots nous verse le bonheur,
S'envolent loin de nous de la même vitesse
Que les jours de malheur ?
Eh quoi ! n'en pourrons-nous fixer au moins la trace ?
Quoi ! passés pour jamais ! quoi ! tout entiers perdus !
Ce temps qui les donna, ce temps qui les efface,
Ne nous les rendra plus !
Éternité, néant, passé, sombres abîmes,
Que faites-vous des jours que vous engloutissez ?
Parlez : nous rendrez-vous ces extases sublimes
Que vous nous ravissez ?
Ô lac ! rochers muets ! grottes ! forêt obscure !
Vous, que le temps épargne ou qu'il peut rajeunir,
Gardez de cette nuit, gardez, belle nature,
Au moins le souvenir !
Qu'il soit dans ton repos, qu'il soit dans tes orages,
Beau lac, et dans l'aspect de tes riants coteaux,
Et dans ces noirs sapins, et dans ces rocs sauvages
Qui pendent sur tes eaux.
Qu'il soit dans le zéphyr qui frémit et qui passe,
Dans les bruits de tes bords par tes bords répétés,
Dans l'astre au front d'argent qui blanchit ta surface
De ses molles clartés.
Que le vent qui gémit, le roseau qui soupire,
Que les parfums légers de ton air embaumé,
Que tout ce qu'on entend, l'on voit ou l'on respire,
Tout dise : Ils ont aimé !
14 April 2007
updates
1. so i have 1 day of classes left. ever. as an undergrad. at byu.
2. i got a new job as a waitress/server at guru's on center street. so i'll work 2 jobs during spring and make money so i can eat at oxford. and yes, i did graduate college to become a waitress.
3. i finally picked up the wings of the dove again - i read it 2 winters ago in venice (thought it was appropriate), but still had 75 pages left to finish. and i'm finally doing it. and loving it.
4. jean-pierre bemba is an idiot (like this is new) and refusing to institute peace in the newly-formed democratic republic of the congo. 4 million people have already died, bemba. . .please give up your arms and help the democratic processes.
5. prince william is single again. another option? perhaps.
2. i got a new job as a waitress/server at guru's on center street. so i'll work 2 jobs during spring and make money so i can eat at oxford. and yes, i did graduate college to become a waitress.
3. i finally picked up the wings of the dove again - i read it 2 winters ago in venice (thought it was appropriate), but still had 75 pages left to finish. and i'm finally doing it. and loving it.
4. jean-pierre bemba is an idiot (like this is new) and refusing to institute peace in the newly-formed democratic republic of the congo. 4 million people have already died, bemba. . .please give up your arms and help the democratic processes.
5. prince william is single again. another option? perhaps.
09 April 2007
08 April 2007
if i never meet you in this life, let me feel the lack
"Faith in Him is more than just professing belief. Faith in Jesus Christ consists of complete reliance on Him. As God, He has infinite power and intelligence and love. There is no human problem beyond His capacity to solve. Because He has descended below all things, He knows how to help us rise above our daily difficulties."
- Ezra Taft Benson
- Ezra Taft Benson
Happy Easter everyone.
God is Love.
01 April 2007
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